Dear Konnor, You are ONE Today

This was the first time I held you in my arms. I love you so much. 

Thank you, my sweet boy, for giving me the best year of my life. I always knew that I wanted to be a mommy, but I never could have imagined the intensity of the love I feel for you. When we are apart, my body physically aches. It started the day you were born. I’ve learned to get used to it, but it never goes away. Not a moment goes by when I don’t have you at least in the back of my mind.

I like to think of the bond between us as magic. When you hurt, I hurt. When you smile, I smile. When you laugh, I laugh. You give me some kind of super power that allows my heart to grow bigger every day. And when you put your tiny little hands around neck and press your baby boy head up against my chest, our big souls combine and nothing can ruin our happiness.

I love to see you learn each day. Right now, you are sitting on the floor trying to read the mail. You are holding a big sheet of paper up to your face and babbling away. Tiny moments like this make up my whole world and I will cherish them forever. Time slips by without even realizing it and considering how quickly you turned one year old, I am certain that the next time I blink I will be sending you off to college or helping you buy your first apartment.

I like to imagine what our lives will be like in a few years. What will be your favorite food? Will you like camping? Will your love of music grow? Will you get excited on family road trips and play the alphabet game?

I hope that you grow up to respect other people. If there is just one lesson you learn in life I want it to be the value of respect. I’m sure you will realize this, though I will try my best to hide it, but I am not a very confident person. I will doubt every parenting decision I make, but I will still do everything in my power to make sure you remain a good person. It is obvious already that you have a beautiful soul.

I’m going to end your birthday letter with a haiku about my first year as your mommy.

A new soul shines bright
My endless supply of love
Life is best with you

I cannot wait to see what kind of amazing things you do as a one-year-old. I thank God for bringing you into my life and I thank you for filling my heart.

With all the love in my heart,
– Mommy

Advertisement